God and Baby

Okay . . . so I’m suppose to be getting ready for a conference call that’s happening in about 20 minutes and just above my notes and calculations is the latest photo of our little one. I really need to get it together for this meeting, but I can’t keep myself from gazing at this wonder in front of me. I’m so curious about so many things. What are they going to be like? Are they already adapting personality traits from us? Are they going to be keen spirited, peaceful and eccentric like Jeff? Are they going to pick up my stubborn nature and have the idea that everything always has to be perfect? (God – I pray you leave that out of them . . . for their sake, not just mine.) What do they really look like? The body appears to be growing normally . . . how’s the brain functioning? Are they going to be okay? I have a lot of questions for them and many will be answered once I see them for the first time.

It reminds me a lot of all the questions and wonders we have about God. I’m excited to meet this new little one, but nervous about the unknowns. Similar to making the transition to heaven, I’m nervous about how my life is going to change even though I’m told it’s the best thing that will ever happen to me. I’m comfortable here and how our lives are. Just as we look forward to going to heaven and we say we’re ready, the process it takes to get there is so scary to us, even though we know its better and we know everything is going to be okay. It’s the simple fact of change and the unknowns that makes us a little leery and gives us that wonder, curiosity and hope.

Signed,
The anxious, excited, nervous, happy, curious, scared, hopeful, prayerful and unprepared soon-to-be mom.