It's like Christmas!

well...i'm back from my travels and have read jeff's entries. he cracks me up. one of the many things i love about him is his sense of humor and perspective on life. he always keeps me thinking.

it's funny to me how things have shifted over the past few weeks on 'to know or not to know'. one thing we have always strived for in our marriage is to be sensitive to one anothers wants, desires, views, etc. i think that's how marriages continue to...well...continue. as of late, we have both started seeing each others views on why we do or don't want to know if this baby is boy or a girl. i've come around to his side and he's come around to mine. we've been on the fence for a couple weeks now and i've gotta tell ya...those moments in the doctor's office and ultrasound room were quite a hoot! when the tech handed jeff that envelope, he immediatly started squirming. he says, 'this is worse than christmas!'. he's holding that envelope up to the light to try to peak, he's shifting the video tape case around to see if it's marked on the label, he even asks the doctor questions to get hints! i thought 'now this is the jeff i know!'

every christmas jeff will go shopping for me and when he gets home, or off the internet, or back from the mailbox, he comes to me with great excitement and says, 'can i tell you what i got you?' or 'can i give you your present now? ....just one?' he wears me out with this, but he's so cute and so funny with it, it makes me laugh and i actually enjoy it. now i never want to know what i'm getting because i love the surprise at christmas. if you're going to tell me what it is then make me wait to open it or if you just give it to me early then it's not fun anymore when you look under the tree and see it wrapped up or perhaps just not there because you already have it. there's no curiosity or mind twirling dreams or thinking of all the things you really want to be there. it just takes the fun out of it for me.

now after hearing all of this...do you see why it's weird that we've been flipped on the 'wanting to know' part of this whole thing? we're backwards! so with all that said things are feeling back to normal and i really don't think we'll wait till this thing is born to find out...we're both way to anxious for that now. i do think that even in the knowing what it is, there are still far more things to be surprised by and curious about when he/she does arrive that it doesn't ruin the feeling of a 'christmas surprise' for me. it just makes me that much more anxious and curious for all the other things to discover.

sorry we drag you into our tug-of-war of mixed mind whirls!